These are the words I was raised by. These are the words that have made me stay miserable and not try to experience everything holding me back.
How am I doing? I’m doing wonderful. I’m actually finally in full control of my life. It’s funny, really. They say everything in life is a voluntary interaction (sans The State, of course). But when you really look at how you can be trapped in your own mind with a certain ideology, it can feel quite the opposite of voluntary.
Instead of ignoring impulses and making excuses as to why I can’t do something, I’m going to start acting. I’m going to start being careless (not too careless, of course) to see where life leads me.
I’m going to start living. Since I’ve spent 27 years doing the opposite.